Covid sucks
The title may an understatement. How can I even begin to describe how messed up this virus really is?
This new BA.5 variant snuck past my immune system and has been knocking down people in my social circle. Even for some of those who have been previously infected, and/or vaccinated and boosted- it doesn’t prevent this variant from wreaking havoc on the hosts who encounter its wrath. I personally was turned into a couch potato and Netflix became my new best friend.
I generally am pretty healthy and even when I do fall ill it doesn’t usually last that long. Also typically I’m still able to get stuff done when sick. Not this time. Not with Covid. It has been strange the various ways this obnoxious virus has effected my body and I’m ready to be healthy again. I’m super grateful my immune system has been working overtime to overcome this sneaky little invader but the battle continues.
What is the purpose of Covid, I wonder, and why does it affect us all differently? This time, this variant, for me it started with horrible headaches and a fever. Then the fatigue set in, body aches and a horrible itchy rash appeared on my hands. My temperature returned to normal after 3 days and I was feeling better when I got slammed with head cold symptoms. I keep moving thru waves of feeling better and then feeling very strange.
I’m writing this post because maybe it will help someone else feel better when Covid strikes close to home. All my usual tricks to stay healthy didn’t work this time. The one thing I regret the most is that I stopped wearing my mask in critical places. Would it have prevented this miserable experience? Nothing is for certain but I will be playing it safer and masking up again from now on. This virus is no joke and I would do almost anything to avoid feeling this way ever again.
Stay healthy my friends.
Day Dreams
I’ve been day dreaming and painting again too! And still sewing up a storm. And teaching yoga!
Mixing work and play. Summer is here!
Big Changes
Yeah, lots of big changes lately…. traded canvas work for a boat that needs work then traded my Highlander for a Truck so I can tow the boat. A pocket cruiser 1977 O’day 20 on a trailer and a 2005 Toyota Tacoma TRD with a canopy on the 5’ bed.
I traded the dentist I was seeing in Bonney Lake for a Dentist in Mount Vernon that offers bone regeneration for periodontal disease. I’m going to write more about that journey in another blog post soon but I spent a full day at Skagit Valley Dentistry last Thursday getting my teeth cleaned below the gums with a fiber optic camera so the hygienist could see what she was doing. If you want to look it up before I write the post check out PerioPeak.
I’ve been working on all the projects while trying to optimize my health. I fully changed my diet and have eliminated processed sugar and dairy. Giving up sugar was hard but stopping dairy has been the most difficult… but my gut is functioning better. Butter is my only exception to the rule. I don’t think I could live without butter. Lol.
Teaching yoga at the Whatcom Family Y lately as a sub has been a wonderful experience. Every class helps me improve my skills and share my love of yoga- plus it gets me to practice myself and for that I am super grateful.
I’ve done a few paid readings for PurelySpirit and would love to do more. However it takes a lot of time management to squeeze in all these things and at some point I have to choose priorities.
For now my main goal is completing all the sewing work I’ve committed to doing for all the lovely humans that support my business. I’m am so thankful for all the people who have made ElevenNW a success.
With all these changes there may be more changes since I’m on a roll lately. We will see….
Diary Vs Journal
This blog is not actually a diary, its more like a journal but I thought “want to read my diary” was funny. It brought me back to my childhood where I would have been horrified if anyone actually read my diary. I know that there are all kinds of opinions on what defines a diary versus a journal but it doesn’t matter to me. What both of those words mean to me is a place to spew mental vomit in writing. Sorry, that sounds gross but thats exactly what it feels like sometimes.
A journal or a diary is actually much more than that for me- it’s a place to sort things out, record events, take notes of my inner landscape, write goals, dreams, desires, questions and more. This blog is a toned down version of my real journal. Though I hope there is less spewing here and more creative writing as a form of informing and sharing general yet sometimes amusing ideas rather than a cathartic release of things that metaphorically make my stomach upset.
I have not been writing enough. Or working enough on the tasks that make me real money. I have a hard time doing things just for money. I want to do them for love and for free but I live in a real physical world where that is not a viable option yet. I keep chasing the proverbial cute squirrels and trying to find the balance between doing what I love for people I love and making real tangible money that puts food in my organic-free-range-gluten-free mouth.
I don’t know if I’ve admitted it here but my OCD and ADHD symptoms are real. Although I think I hide them well and have some decent coping mechanisms, it makes things much more difficult at times than I want to confess. It’s not getting easier as I get older either. I still check to make sure the door is locked and check that the gas stove is off sometimes three times before I leave the house even though I know I checked them. I jump from one item on my task list to the next before the other is finished and eventually everything gets done but I badly wish I could be more efficient. I’m hard on myself and yet I’m learning to be vulnerable by sharing the fact that I’m far from perfect yet still far from being okay with that fact too.
So maybe this post does have a little mental vomit. I’m sorry if it stinks but life is messy and we all are just doing the best that we can with what we’ve got. So please try not to be hard on yourself, remember to take time to breathe and accept the things you cannot change. This is a reminder to myself too.
For now, I wish you all the courage in the world to change the things you can. Let us embrace our inner fearless tigers and go after the lives we want. Rawr!
New Business Venture
https://www.purelyspirit.com/ This is so exciting for me! And my goodness it’s just another thing on my list of loves and to-dos but I have major help with this one thanks to my friend and new business partner Charles Crooks . Charles is super talented in energy work, tarot and much more and he is currently also the master of all the the Social Media for Purely Spirit! I have been blogging on the PS website and working on the details for our first in-person workshop. Please check him out and check out the new website then let me know in the comments what you think. Thank you!
A Third Type of Love
Unconditional. Well-rounded. Infinite. Spiritual.
Love is a hot topic and there are many types of love. I believe love is what holds this whole universe together. Love can transform everything instantly. Love can be confused and misused but that’s a different kind of love, not true love.
I could ramble on and on about love but it’s late, post full moon lunar eclipse day.
What am I really trying to say? I chose to change my last name to Love because I feel like love is the answer to questions I have yet to ask.
Love is the reason to keep incarnating into this human form. Love for all the other souls we want to spend time with in the physical realm under albeit oppressive challenging conditions. We do it all for love.
This crazy life we live on this planet we call home, we keep breathing because of love.
Fell off the wagon
The writing everyday wagon that is. I had good intentions again and then… well… I got distracted again by life. I’m still squeezing in moments of writing for NaNoWRiMo amidst the every other day yoga sessions and short runs or walks outside. The biggest thing has been trying to reduce my sugar consumption. I’m an addict and it’s so hard to stop eating refined sugars and processed food! Argh!
I know how important nutrition is conceptually but it takes so much time! Just like self-care practices are so important and so time consuming. Just brushing and flossing my teeth twice a day is a self care hygiene act that is so important yet takes precious time and energy. I hardly even take time to shave my legs and I certainly obviously don’t get my hair cut very often either. Yet where does all my time go?
My work schedule is flexible and I spend plenty of time on my business with hours that aren’t billable. Planning ahead, trying to get organized and I still don’t seem to be able to keep up. And I’m always rushing!
why? I’m trying to take more time to take care of myself better since I’m not getting any younger yet I struggle with guilt. My husband and I just went to some hot springs in Oregon for our anniversary and only spent three days and two nights away. It was lovely and a long drive but worth it yet now I feel behind again. I want so badly for time to feel like a friend instead of a fleeting ferocious f**ker who is making me age un gracefully.
Stubborn as am I keep grasping at the moments and reevaluate what is really most important. Health is wealth, without health wealth is an evil necessity to try and heal so I must stress less, eat better and exercise more balancedly. Also, life is short and goes by quick for all of us because we take our tomorrow’s for granted. Nothing is certain but change and the fact that it can all be game over in an instant.
Its all about how we spend our time then isn’t it? And I desperately want to make more time and take more time to take care of myself and spread the love to everyone else in this magical world. Health is so vital to the enjoyment of this life and we all deserve the time it takes to make and eat good food and do health promoting things, right?
So I’ll still write, I’ll get back on that wagon and keep trying to finish my novel idea in a reasonable period of time. And I’ll make time to do the activities that keep my body and mind in shape. I will find the balance necessary somehow. Thanks for reading my ramble.
Halloween Samhain NaNoWriMo
It is indeed All Hallows’ Eve and tomorrow marks the first day of November which is also commonly known as National Novel Writing Month. My goal for this year’s NaNoWriMo is to spend an hour a day working on one of my fun books. It’s been too long and I’ve spent too much time chasing those proverbial squirrels around.
I do love to sew and I still have plenty of projects to keep me going for awhile in the sewing department. I’m adding a layer of padding/time for writing or I’ll never finish my novel concepts.
I spent today planning, daydreaming, paddleboarding, hula hooping and even threw in some yoga while wearing my witch hat most of the day. I celebrated the day of the dead with the virtual death of my disorganized procrastination and unhealthy habits. I will do better, I will do more and I will write again regularly and finish a novel this month.
What am I writing about? I’ll tell you soon.
Happy Last day of October!
Inspired action
Here we go again… I re-enabled my blog. I didn’t actually realize I had disabled it/them. Whoopsie. I’m a mess. Everything in my life seems chaotic and disorganized and I’m trying to change that now, again. Starting here.
My how the time rushes by and technology just keeps advancing. Looking at my website again it needs so much work! I’ve been so busy sewing sewing sewing and taking photos and hiking and running that I’ve let everything else slide.
Then I started doing DeniseDT’s money manifesting challenge and the first day is all about decluttering. It’s helped me jump into a new process to reclaim my space and regain awareness of what’s important with regard to how I want to be in my life. Thanks Lucky Bee Lady! Still so much to learn and do and whew… I’m trying to do it all.
More good stuff and changes to come soon I hope. I want to be organized and healthy and confident and successful and enjoy my work. Working on it.
Affirmations from Denise Duffield-Thomas (Author of “Get Rich Lucky Bitch”) who is putting on the Facebook live challenge this week.
Memorial Day Weekend
Good gooseness! So I haven’t been blogging again, nor has it been very funny. Let me start over and try again. And just then is when the blank begins.
As Master Yoda’s words echo in my mind…”there is no try, only do” the wisdom rings true. I must do for in the effort of trying I end up crying. I will do more because I do adore writing. I have a new book idea in mind while all my other books are half done on the to-do-bookshelf waiting.
I take inspired action then it fizzles with each day where chores and making real money gets in the way. And then there is the fact that I always want to just go outside and play. So I say, what the hey? Change is the only constant and someday I will do more of this thing I adore.
Happy Memorial Day weekend! I hope you all remember to play and enjoy this life that can be gone in a flash.
One of those days….
Do you ever have one of those days where no matter how hard you try nothing works the way you want it to?
I’m having one of those days. Nothing is going as planned. My efforts to complete tasks on my to-do list has been futile. Trust me… I’ve started on 3 different tasks on my list yet each one ended with failure to complete and not for lack of effort. I must wait for another day I suppose…. or I will end up bashing my head into an imaginary wall again. Argh.
You must know the kind of frustration I’m feeling… yet I hope that you don’t. Seriously…. it’s just been one of those days and it’s almost over. I hope tomorrow is different. Tomorrow must be different. There’s taxes to file and bills to pay, bags to sew and laundry to fold and a million other tiny tasks that need to be completed. Yet for today, I feel so defeated and I have retreated.