Eye Sea

Eye am not sure what to write about today...

I sea all the items on my task list and my mind wanders. Mixed emotions of love and fear surround the wishes in my imagination. The dualism prevalent in this life on spaceship earth this time has enraptured my attention. Mind versus Matter, Spirit and Body, Heart and Soul. 

I am strong, I am enough, I am worthy, I am beautiful, I am capable, I am what I am.

Wishing I was more, learning how to be, wanting to be free... 

Free from feeling like I have to make money, free from having to prove myself to myself. Free from the struggle that makes me question my worth and my abilities.

I tell myself one thing, I am strong, but before long some voice from the past reaches into my serenity claiming I am weak as I haven't done enough yet today. What did you say?

I must not listen, I know it's not me. I know me, I am strong but I fear only as strong as I choose to feel when I believe in the spirit within me. The power of my personal awareness that I am more than this human body with these eyes that I see when I look in the mirror.

Eye know I must choose love and not fear.

Eye know yet I struggle to believe.

Changing Choices

Just before the start of Round the County out of Roche Harbor on Sunday last year.

I chose this picture for this post today because Round The County is coming up this weekend. The annual party at Anacortes Yacht Club is tomorrow night beginning a tradition that takes place every year. Orcas Island yacht club hosts this two day event that has an overnight stop in Roche Harbor on San Juan Island. I won't be sailing this year because I'm making the choice to change.

One of the changes I'm making today, is to this website as I have now made my A-musing Blog my homepage so the first thing you see when you visit will be the last thing I have shared online. I'm making the choice to write more and to work on a lot of my projects I have had good intentions of finishing before now. I've suffered from a lot of distractions and a bad habit of procrastination coupled with some healthy excuses. The time has come however to choose to change and part of that involves sailing less and writing more. My goal is to attempt to write something on my blog every day followed by a good amount of time writing other things after on the computer. I need to get my books finished and published so now is the time to push. I hope you enjoy my daily musings in the meantime and I hope all my friends have a safe and fun time sailing around San Juan County this weekend with out me.