Awe Shuksan

Aw shucks, I had some brilliant idea for what to write here but suddenly I'm feeling extremely tired.

Mount Shuksan always inspires me with it's sheer beauty and obvious awesomeness.

I had a wonderful day doing readings at Simply Spirit during Jill Miller's psychic fair today. It really helped me to feel validated that I can see clearly. I just have to learn to trust myself consistently and be honest with what I see. Since I graduated from the yearlong Clairvoyant training program I have missed going into the reading and healing center on a regular basis. Today made me realize how much I want to be doing readings for people. I want to help, it felt good and I would love to figure out a way to do things like this more often. It was my first time being paid for readings too, (which I would have happily done for free) but it also made me feel like the real deal. I wonder if I could do this professionally?

Jill is a wonderful teacher, an amazing reader and great healer and I'm very thankful to know her. She has helped me immensely in my own personal growth and I would highly recommend her services to everyone. I love the fact that this community has such a valuable resource. I know I have overcome a lot of my own fears by having readings done and even by doing readings for others. It's amazing work.

Daring to Dream

Here we go... I've done my research. I've poured my heart and soul into writing this proposal for HayHouse and I hope that my dreams will soon come true. Even though it scares me to think of what may happen after I send it off tomorrow I just have to trust that whatever happens will be meant to be. I've put in the effort and I will keep on dreaming of bigger better things as I continue the journey that is my life.

The original title was going to be Bonsai or Microcosm but after hearing James Van Praggh speak at the writers workshop I changed my mind but had no idea what to call the book. When I was on the plane flying home from Hawaii it dawned on me that the whole story was really about Love versus Fear. Often times I avoided doing things I loved out of fear. Fear that I wouldn't be trusted by the ones I loved the most. I sacrificed the things I loved to make things work in so many relationships I found myself in.

Love gives us the courage to face our fears but often times the fear of losing love can also create more fear. Especially in relationships, which it almost seems as if my whole life I've been learning about Love and Fear from some of the people who have been closest to me. From this I've also learned that above all else it's important to love and to trust myself first. I'm the only one that knows whats best for me and the truth always reveals itself eventually no matter how much fear we have regarding scenarios in our lives and our personal relationships.

Lucky

I’m so happy to say that I’m so freakin lucky 🍀. I’m lucky to have so much love in my life. I’m lucky to be alive too for that matter. Life is a gift when we are present. 

I’m learning how to be more present. I try to remember to appreciate all the wonderful things that sometimes I take for granted. There are so many reasons I feel so fortunate. So much I have and so many things I get to experience in this lifetime.

Even though I struggle with duality often enough I know that I learn from it. I learn from the love & I learn from my fears. I’m here to keep learning and growing and I am grateful.