Tweet

Time for a little tweet-ness to change up the standard photo + text blogging I do. Living and learning the online way of social media interconnectedness. Linking my belief system with a greater network in hopes that what I believe becomes truth. A little bird told me an agent and a publisher are looking for me. It was actually a hummingbird that kept making that tweet sound until I paid enough attention and listened to the message behind the feathered beak speak. I am thankful to that tiny beautiful creature for the reminder to write this.

To the person, people or organization that is looking for me:

Hi, I'm so happy that you have stumbled upon my blog. I'm working on improvements and hope that you will bear with me during the building phase of this creative process. I assure you it will be worth the time and effort it takes to make this relationship successful for everyone involved. I'm looking forward to establishing a contract and having a better sense of direction and more connections than I could establish on my own. I appreciate the support and knowledge that we have to offer each other. I'm truly excited to meet you and begin to our journey together. Thank you for finding me and letting me know the next step.

Sincerely,

Joy Love

Who & Why

Blogging 101: Who I am and why I'm here... I guess this will be my 11th post, I just received an e-mail letting me know my blog is now public and search engines can find me. A while ago I signed up for the Blogging 101 online course and it has just started... During SuperBowl 50- Panthers vs Broncos. I'm at house I've never been to before with a bunch people I just met sitting in a prime seat- a very comfy chair right next to the big screen and I feel a wee bit guilty using this plush space to fulfill my 1st official blog assignment. I'm still paying attention to the game and the excitement in the house is audible. Halftime show is next with Coldplay but that's not what this blog post is supposed to be about. That's just a description  of the environment I find myself in and a sign of the dedication/commitment I have made to writing. Sounds like Jell-O shots are going on in the background. Once again I must focus on the task at hand. Realizing more and more the only time I have is now if I want to do something I must not wait or put if off until later because something else is always going to be happening as well.

I am a writer searching for a pathway to express myself and share these words that I hope will convey some deep meaning I have yet to understand. More than a writer I am a woman in my 30's with a mission to understand my true sole purpose for this lifetime. The flower of life is the new icon for Coldplay which is extremely fitting as its flashing all over and is the stage for the halftime show. To explain the details of my discovery of the flower of life would be another blog post entirely but let's go with just another synchronistic moment in the flow of my life. Paradise, I'm alive again, rainbows and flowers, wow. The words of this song are so appropriate as well.

This brings me to the why I am writing this blog- to uncover & share the answers. I am seeking understanding of the obscure ways the universe works. This planet we live on is so amazingly beautiful, the experiences we can have and share, our capacity for creation, for love. "Believe in Love" was just the message in the stands at the end of the halftime show. Does anybody else see the reality that I see or is it just because of what I believe? Where do the boundaries blur and the lines cross. This is why I write. To seek and to share vision, experience and love for this human experience.

Earthquake

Suddenly shaken from my comfort zone one again my eyes are open and I write. Startled it's been two days plus one month since my last blog post. Good intentions, busy schedule and plenty of ways to distract myself. The holidays have been good and it's so close to 2016 I can almost taste it. Time flies when you're having fun.

As I lay in bed last night thinking about the past, the present and the future the door suddenly shifted open and I felt my world start to move. Ever so gently the structures I believed were solid proved to be fluid and danced as the earth quaked. 4.8 magnitude Sydney BC and no serious damage- Thank Goodness. Yet it rattled me to the core, time to re-prioritize, re-focus and keep appreciating all the details of this life for it can change (or end) in the blink of an eye.

I am grateful for this awareness and all the possibilities and opportunities as they continue to present themselves. "Today is the best F---ing day ever!"- I read on a license plate frame Christmas Day on I-405- it made me think. Living in the moment, experiencing this life on this beautiful planet with so many blessings- today really is the best fucking day ever- I am alive and the potential is limitless. I hope everyone has a fantastic experience of this thing we call life today. Thank you for being alive.

Turmoil

 

Twisted thoughts ravage the inner landscape of my mind and appear like gnarly old trees along the banks of a raging river. Tendrils of emotion fall like raindrops collected on the forest canopy cascading downward with gravitys pull. Icy cold roots reach deep into the earth searching for warmth in the form of peace.

This sensation of this turmoil is pure confusion, a lost and wandering mind caught up in a moment of uncertainty. The future looks bright and the past has already passed yet the now of here that is spins between them. A figure 8 of sorts weaving a web as it occilates around the center of okay then back to good and then to bad. Understanding, comprehending or even explaining the waves of inner disconnect seem futile. What have I done to find myself feeling this way?

Nothing is that bad yet my eyes are suddenly puffy and red. My purple shirt has wet salty droplets as I gaze out the sheer curtains at the pastel sky from the sun setting. Soon the moon will rise and the night will sparkle above with stars and below with frosty ice crystals. The day will fade away and the sun will rise again tomorrow with a new day- of this I am certain and find comfort in this. Yet I am still disconcerted with what has caused my inner world to become so turbulent and can't help but wonder how long it will last.

Maybe I just need some more sleep or does it have something to do with all those vivid dreams I had last night? Maybe I just need some more food after having eaten a lot yesterday and not enough today? Or maybe it's just something so simple it's silly I haven't figured it out yet? Maybe I just have to change my mind and the rest will follow. Life is good... really good, I'm so thankful for all the wonderful things in my life. The future holds so much potential it's truly beautiful to imagine. Maybe this emotional disturbance is the final letting go of the last bit of whatever I was holding on to from the past, the final goodbye to what was? I can only hope.

Moving on...

Pure Love

The only constant is change. Even though it can be hard to let go sometimes, with change comes opportunity and even the ability to start over. We can recreate ourselves in each moment if we choose to do so just by shifting our awareness. When we pay attention to our inner world, to our instincts and take action based on the truth we feel in our hearts absolutely anything is possible. My eyes have been opened, my mind has been set free from what I used to believe and my heart is bursting with love. I am finally listening to the wisdom that resides in the depths of my being. The universe is incredibly accommodating in showing us signs to confirm our inner knowing when we are open to its potential. I'm am eternally grateful to have discovered this amazing reality. "You have to believe it to see it."

The symbolism of this beautiful bouquet of flowers I recently received is just another confirmation of what my heart already knows. The color white suggests purity, innocence and  new beginnings while the cleansing, healing power of white is limitless. We each have the chance to start over with a blank canvas and can choose paint a new picture of our ourselves and how we want to see the world. I hit the reset button on my life and my canvas was blank only short time ago. Yet already I have started to create the most beautiful life I had never dreamed was truly an option. Listening to my heart has opened my mind and increased my awareness of who I am, who I want to be and how I want to live. As the sun's warmth is streaming through the window and brightening my world I breathe in the scent of these incredible white flowers on the table next to me. The simple actions we take in our everyday lives can mean so much to the people we interact with. These were a gift of Pure Love and I'm am so incredibly Thankful for the person who gave them to me. I wish I had the words to convey how truly blessed I feel.

Gratitude

Thank you! I am so very Thankful (Even with this terrible hangover). I'm so grateful that my body will eventually forgive me for abusing it like I did yesterday. I'm thankful for the sudden realization that this behavior is no longer necessary. I'm finished trying to numb the pain, I'm done drowning out the hurtful words and actions. I no longer accept that as reality. It's quite simple actually to remember now how it feels and know how to change. No more self-medicating, no more excuses, no more wasting time. The only constant is change. Today is a new day.

Today I am going to embody this grateful attitude. I am bursting with Gratitude. I sincerely appreciate all the magic and love I feel from this lifetime. Learning & growing & experiencing, what a fabulous time it is to be alive! I'm so happy to be me, to have so many wonderful people in my life. This universe is amazing and I want to share my Joy. Today I wish for everyone to experience the magic of feeling good, of listening to our hearts and opening our eyes to the beauty that exists when we pay attention to it. It's within our grasp in each and every moment when we believe. Thank you for opening my eyes, for believing in me, for loving me without question even when I question myself. This world is amazing, I'm so truly thankful and I hope to continue to live with gratitude for each and every moment.

Coyote Encounter

Coyote startled me when she crossed my path today, I saw her from a distance in the center of the road and she waited until I was close enough to take this picture to disappear into someone's side yard. I could have easily written this off as a chance encounter but part of me knew that was  highly unlikely. It was definetly some kind of sign but what did it mean? What was Coyote trying to tell me? She looked a little roughed up but was moving with soild purpose in the direction of cover. What was she doing in the middle of that neighborhood, in the middle of the road directly in front of me? She must have felt that it was important to take such a risk and be so exposed at that time of day. I believe that animals and their spirits are strong messengers if we pay attention to the wisdom they offer. As I delve deeper into the symbolism associated with this animal's spirit I am shocked it could be so relevant to my life in this moment. Thank you Coyote for opening my eyes today.

Luna Sea

Full Moon today... Do you sense the gravity of this situation? As Luna holds the power to move the sea, she also has a strong effect on me. Being that my human body is over 50% water it makes sense. I believe it is important to pay attention to how I feel, especially in regard to the cycles of the moon. Noticing how my inner world changes with the outer world is illuminating. Not fully understanding why I do certain things this time of the month I accept that there is a power greater than me and just have to let go. Fluidly moving into the waters of my emotions without judgement.

Tree Love

I have always loved trees, some types more than others but I have always loved everything about trees. The way they look- the way they make me feel when I'm in their presence. The way they move and grow- consistent and strong yet flexible when weather changes and the wind blows. Oh and don't get me started on how they smell. Certain trees smell so incredibly wonderful, even more so just after it rains- when they're bursting with essential oils of liquid vitality. It's like pure bliss with every inhalation. I've always been especially fond of evergreens (being from the evergreen state may have something to do with that) but I today fell in love with a small scraggly western red cedar. Like a puppy that melts your heart at the pound I couldn't walk away without taking it with me. Also like a puppy it will need some training and a good place to put it's roots. I then just happened across the perfect beige/sage green glazed piece of pottery and viola! Bonsai. I honestly don't know what I'm attempting to accomplish, I only know that I love this tree and hope it suvives the transplant today. It's raining right now that's a good sign. Keeping the roots moist is important which is why I initially covered the exposed soil surface with moss. That prolific green material that's constantly spilling over from the dark moist side of the roof of the shed. I hope they form a symbiotic relationship and keep each other happy when the weather fluctuates. They sure look good together. I also have always been very fond of the lush, vibrant mosses of the pacific northwest. I actually can't help but reach out and touch (or pet like a lovable puppy) the really thick, furry looking mosses when I'm out hiking in the forest.

Being fond of rocks as well so I added a few quartz crystals that were just sitting there in the yard. I thought the gentle weight of them may help the moss bond with the fresh soil. It's truly a beautiful combination of all those natural things I have always loved. I have these majestic visions of what this tiny scraggly tree can become if it reaches its true potential. I will take pictures of the progression and hopefully, eventually with enough tender love and care, have a miniature version of a beautiful western red cedar tree that I can take with me where ever I call home. I have spent some wonderful times in a few groves of large cedars that I can no longer visit. This one tree could potentially be with me for the rest of my life. It's romantic, yes, but I'm not going to get my hopes up just yet. I have no clue what I'm doing- I just have good intentions. Actually, completely randomly looking at a bookshelf at home this evening I noticed a book called "Indoor Bonsai" sitting there in plain sight.  I'd never noticed it before- strange how that happens- but that's another story. (Granted this tree will live outside unless the weather gets too hot and dry) I imagine this book can still give me some valuable insight into the world of caring for a tree in a pot. I love to learn and have new experiences. This is just the beginning of a micro-adventure of unknown length with a small cedar tree I fell in love with today.

Sunbeams and Moonshine

Good Morning Beautiful! The sun will soon be sending beams of light over the horizon and the moon shine will fade. As the earth keeps spinning the neurons in my brain create spirals of light as I imagine the possibilities for today. Thoughts make the trip from my brain to my fingertips and the words appear on this page. I love to watch the sunrise and the hot tub is calling my name. Am I becoming a morning person? I never dreamed that could happen, it's not in my nature yet somehow I am awakening earlier more often. I sense that a shift is happening and look forward to more sunrises.

Black Cod, Pilaf & Prosecco

Delicious fresh wild whole baked black cod, rice pilaf with shiitakes, carrots, bell pepper and a hint of spice and sharp cheddar apple crisp for dessert. The prosecco is my beverage of choice for the game. Just past half time and my belly is full. I don't know if I'll have room for dessert. My "chosen family" of local guys are making loud comments about the game and drinking beer on this Thursday evening. Dressed in lounge wear with a baggy green and blue sweatshirt I sit here drinking prosecco and appreciating this moment for what it is. Good food with good friends and Porter Dog. I'm Thankful for this life.