The fact of the matter is that life is messy. There are always chores to be done no matter what. Laundry doesn't do itself, dishes need to be washed, toilets need to get cleaned, cars have to be maintained and the cycle continues on endlessly. It's part of being alive.
The facts are usually clear to see and although there is some wiggle room, the truth speaks for itself.
We take care of business, business takes care of us.
It all goes both ways in this dualistic world.
Sometimes I wish it was all much simpler. Then I wonder, what if it is simple and I am the one making it seem so complicated?
I wrote my post yesterday because I felt like I was being played by the car dealership. At the last minute I took the highlander in to a independent mechanic to get a second opinion before I traded away what I thought was going to be my long term transportation companion. The independent mechanic said the minor leak was nothing to worry about.
Since the car dealership had already listed my car for sale on their webpage I came to two conclusions. Either there was actually no real problem with my car in the first place and they figured it was safe to resell it without any major work. Or they were just going to pawn my problem off on another unsuspecting victim while making money off of a new transaction with me so I figured I could have ended up with the same problem with the newer car anyway. Which is why I had to get that second opinion for my own piece of mind.
I didn't want to give up my heated leather seats as much as I thought I would have been okay without them for a supposedly more reliable vehicle either. When the car dealership first said they were going to make it right, I should have asked what that meant because the whole time the situation didn't feel right and I should have trusted myself. Why do I still struggle to trust myself? I'm learning and it just isn't as simple as I'd like it to be.
It was all a game to them but for me the numbers just didn't add up, the integrity didn't seem real and now I am moving forward after a bunch of car-related stress. I am still hoping I can trust that I made the right decision however my ability to trust anyone including myself has been compromised by this chain of events. I know with time it will feel better. I just have to remember to trust myself above all else and hold my ground.