Back Up

When I went to see if I could store some photos from my Mac on an external hard drive tonight I discovered some pictures from my old PC. I wasn't able to do what I'd hoped with the data transfer and will have to find a better way later. Part of which means being better about photo editing and organizing on a regular basis. Anyway I thought I would share this picture of me that I found to be quite disturbing in a lot of ways. 

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First I'll point out that it was taken in July of 2011, almost 7 years ago. Second, I have to mention that I'm embarrassed about the fact that at that point I weighed almost 200 pounds. As you could guess by the beer in my hand I had been drinking. I was drinking a lot at that time, it went really well with the whole sailing scene and was a key ingredient in my marriage. Needless to say the beer didn't help with my weight.

Looking back at where I was then from where I am now gives me quite the perspective.

I have come a long way.

I haven't had a drop of alcohol in over two years, I stopped drinking shortly after I decided a divorce was the only way out. I had lost weight when started exercising more and also when I went gluten-free (and switched to wine) four years ago but it was hard to maintain the whole time. I now have stayed around 155 pounds since I pushed the reset button of my life. It was scary to let go of the life I had created for myself and I had a lot of doubts at the time but I knew I had to do something and fast.

It's hard to imagine how I felt then versus how I feel now. So much has changed and I know that I am much healthier, physically, mentally and emotionally. 

I wonder what I'll be like in another 7 years? 

Costco Connection

A shot from the best Road Trip of 2017!

A shot from the best Road Trip of 2017!

I just happened to notice a little box asking to share a story about a Road Trip in this months issue of the Costco Connection magazine. The first thing I thought of was driving through the desert this last summer with Mark for an unexpected work trip to Ontario, Oregon. 

 I thought it would be a good exercise to write something up and send it. It will be interesting to see if they decide to publish it.

Hooping in the desert sun.

Hooping in the desert sun.

It was full of everything I love- adventure, exploration, hot springs, scenery, hula hooping, sunsets and time with a man who stole my heart. Just like that mini road trip was unexpected so is our relationship. We never expected to be together, we didn't have any idea from the very beginning what this was or what it would turn into. We still don't know how its all going to turn out. I shake my head and wonder what it all is. We have some connection that is for sure beyond this lifetime, it may even be beyond time itself. 

All I know is that life is a hell of an adventure and I just want to enjoy it as best I can. I can take life much too seriously at times but I know life is supposed to be fun. Even though we all struggle at times I guess it's just happens that way to provide contrast for the times when it seems so easy and wonderful.