Well... Played

Or played out? Actually it was an audition tonight to be in a play. What on earth am I thinking? I have so much stuff to do already. What if they give me a part? Acting is something I've always wanted to explore and auditioning was fun but my to-do list is long enough. Especially when I get that book contract from HayHouse in 4 days. (Fingers still crossed) I suppose I just focus on how much I love doing all the things I'm doing instead of being afraid that I won't have enough time for it all. Time is on my side.... oh yes it is... sorry song again. Life is still a musical in my head.

I'm almost done with all of the lesson categories in the Duolingo French app so maybe that will free up some time... end that streak and start a new one? I've been thinking about setting aside time every day to finish writing my books instead of blogging too. I"m almost done with the tree portal mural and other projects are well along. I just gotta stay focused on the love and keep moving forward, one day at a time.  I am thankful. So thankful for my life.

Just dreaming of that high mountain air again... spring is coming soon. 

Just dreaming of that high mountain air again... spring is coming soon. 

Art Critic

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I love art in all of it's many forms and I love to create it too. I think I've finally figured out how to ignore my inner critic that says it's not good enough and share my creations anyway.

I learned the hard way that it's best to do things sheerly for the love of doing them. I'm creating art because I feel driven to create and I'm sharing my creations with the hope that it will inspire other people to be able to do the same no matter what their inner Art critic may have to say.

Why is it that so many of us are so critical of ourselves?

It's time to turn off that voice in our heads that talks down to us. There is so much beauty in the world and the beauty is in the imperfections. Nobody is perfect in the sense that most of us think of the word. We are all works in progress and that is part of the reason why we are alive. To experience the process of creation in a myriad of ways.

We are imperfectly perfect, consistently inconsistent human beings who are here to express ourselves from our hearts. We are here to learn about love and connection in a seemingly disconnected environment. Art connects us across time and space, just like dance which is a movement art, there are no boundaries or language barriers, its pure perception, creation and expression.  Free yourself from that voice that has been hindering you and create whatever it is that your heart desires.

Do it for the love of it, do it for yourself and you may learn to love yourself more in the process. You are beautiful and unique, there is no one else out there like you. So celebrate your gifts however they may express themselves through you and share them with the world.

Selling Books

#Gagbot Quotes and #Prisma App modifications hooping with a selfie stick today.

#Gagbot Quotes and #Prisma App modifications hooping with a selfie stick today.

I think one of my biggest fears is actually selling my books. Once I get them done then I have to get them out there and once they're out there I have to be ready to hold my own regardless of the feedback I'll probably get. I know I can't please everyone and if my first book is a success it's scary to think of how many people might read it.

Then the more people that read it the more there may be people who don't like it. It's a vulnerable feeling to allow such an intimate look into how my mind works with regard to my personal experiences and perceptions. 

Writing this blog seems safe currently because there are only a few people who even read it. It's going to be much harder to write here when I have a bigger audience because there will be more at stake. At the same time it's also good that I'm aware of this fear and ready to face it.

That's why it's funny that this Gagbot quote is what popped up in the Prisma app when I was looking for a picture to go with my blog post for today. There's so many other things I could be working toward selling that don't make me feel so vulnerable and scared. At the same time I know they won't be nearly as beneficial or satisfying to complete which is why I'm willing to put myself on the line.

Part of it's not really even the selling that scares me, it's finding out whether or not I'm even good enough to be a successful writer. I'm coaching myself daily and doing my best to get past this. I know it's risky but sometimes the bigger the risk the better the reward. I just hope this is the case when I'm selling books before things. 

Thanks Gagbots & Prisma for inspiring this introspection!

Birdbrain

What? The definition of "birdbrain" is a stupid person? That's kinda offensive. I just have this bird on my brain. It's a laughing Kookaburra, a member of the Kingfisher family that lives in Australia. Searching for a subject to paint I asked a special someone for an idea and it led me to this. The watercolor painting is not finished yet but I had just downloaded a couple new app's and had to test them out. This one is a picture I took of the painting that was modified with Prisma. Super fast it turned into another cool artistic version of this bird. I saved multiple modifications made within the app and this is one of my favorites. I am consistently amazed at the things people come up with and how fast technology is progressing. There's an app for just about everything these days. And I'm trying to keep up with the trends now that I'm back in the artistic version of myself. I am hoping to mesh my art with technology to improve my skills and share my work. I love all the possibilities for artistic creations.

Speaking of which I have a great idea for a series called, "Painting with Joy" that I'm working on. Actually Bob Ross is one of my Hero's and I still watch his "Joy of Painting" videos on YouTube. He taught me a lot about painting and some great techniques but most importantly that attitude is everything, "There are no mistakes, only happy accidents". I'd like to share my version of that philosophy in this series that I'm envisioning in my mind. He was an extremely talented artist and I only hope that my skills are acceptable in comparison. I am a bit camera shy but I've started to practice recording myself. The editing process will take time and then I just have to gather up the courage to upload and share what I have created. It's on my long list of stuff to do and the first step is being taken right now. The fact that this idea is written right here and will be published shortly means I have to do it because I just said I am going to. Thank you for reading this and I hope you enjoy what I have to share. It's just another step in my goal of meshing art with technology even though sometimes I feel like a Birdbrain in the process.