Plead The 5th of May

I’m drinking really strong tea made with whole cone Amarillo Hops and organic raw honey. Yes, I’m seeking the intoxicating relaxation that often comes with consuming a large amount of hops. The taste is bitter and sweet with a spicy afterburn that runs from my tongue all the way into my belly. It’s good and not for everyone.

So it’s been awhile since I’ve posted here… I know and do you know why? Life is complicated, full of distractions and when the weather is good I just want to be outside. I’ve been wanting a garden and planting things this year… speaking of… I need to get some hops to plant out there too. And… the hops from the tea are in me and I feel the sweet body bliss easing the aches away.

Yay! Now what was I going to say? I just had my 36th birthday and life is tripping me up. I thought I knew what I was doing and where I was going but it turns out there’s no way of knowing how it’s all going to work out. I just hope it’s better than I can imagine and sooner than I think. Because sometimes this life makes me want to drink again. Over 3.5 years sober and my brain has changed but a lot of my habits are still the same. I’m constantly going, my mind flowing with ideas and dreams while I feel like I’ll burst at the seams, so I seek ways to relax and get out of my own head. And now it’s time for bed.

But I love to write so I should make it a goal to spend more time putting thoughts into form. I will try. I will do. Thank you.