A couple weeks ago I was in my Clairvoyance class on a Friday evening at Simply Spirit. Jill was out of town for the weekend so we had a substitute teacher. I had met Sarah Rose previously at Healing Hour on a Wednesday and was stoked to get to talk with her in this relaxed classroom setting. (She's super cool.) We were all chatting beforehand and she was telling a story about how she wanted to be in Hawaii on the Solstice but didn't know exactly how to make it happen. I got the impression that she believed that it would happen partially because she really wanted it to. As she spoke those words I felt a strange twinge in my solar plexus, not quite realizing at the time what it was. Something stuck a chord and I came to see later that I had the same desire. I wanted to be in Hawaii on the Solstice too.
Consciously I wrote it off and let it go. It didn't make any sense for me to go to Hawaii for the solstice. I don't have extra cash like that just laying around and I have so much stuff on my to-do list at home. I continued on with my projects and after paying off some credit card bills I realized I need to figure some things out fast because the amount of freedom in my bank account is shrinking rapidly. My heart sank, thinking about having to get a "real" job again made me feel all kinds of uncomfortable. I admit that there is something somewhat appealing about working for someone else and collecting a paycheck without having all the risk and responsibility of being a business owner. There's also something very unappealing about losing the power to make ones own decisions by working for someone else. I felt the stress constricting the vessels in my heart. With financial worries in the back of my mind I immediately deleted an email from HayHouse about a writers workshop with Doreen Virtue. Not only was it an extra $650 +tax for the workshop, it was in Hawaii so I would need plane tickets too. Ugh, sigh... back to checking things off my to do list.
For some reason that email stuck in my head. As I was trying to focus on getting some work done thoughts floated through my mind like "I want to meet Doreen Virtue and the CEO of HayHouse.... I want the chance to have the book I've been working on published with HayHouse. I want to go to Hawaii!" UGH. The inner desire and tension was mounting so I put it out there to the universal force, if I'm meant to go to that work shop I will get the money somehow. I searched for other signs that it was meant to be, I got all kinds of excited thinking about going. Then I got the opportunity to help out a friend of a friend doing some Canvas work. Within a short amount of time I had made the $650. It didn't just float to me, I worked my butt off for it but the timeframe and opportunity was perfect. It didn't solve my long term financial issues but it was a step in the direction of my dreams.
Now about those plane tickets... not too long ago my ex-husband reminded me about my Alaska Air mileage account because he was still getting mail for me from them. I got the impression he hated getting any reminders of me so I called Alaska Air right away to have them change my address. That was easy but they told me I had to e-mail them proof of my name change in order to get that changed on the account. I figured I had plenty of time to do that because I was planning on using the miles later on for a trip somewhere with my Mom. We had talked about Mexico or Jamaica but it was too far out to get tickets for yet so I asked my Mom about using the miles for the workshop instead of our trip and she gave me the go ahead. Suddenly it was a rush to get my name changed so I could use the miles. A little more stress from wanting to go and still not knowing if it would work out turned into purchasing a Roundtrip ticket for a grand total of $11.20 after taxes and fees using all the miles I had accrued. I guess it was meant to be!
Quite awhile back I had also talked about going to visit my friend Jasmine who lives in Hawaii but wrote it off because of time and cost. Just so happens that she lives near where the workshop shop is being held. She's even going to pick me up from the airport!!! I'm so excited I get to spend some time with her too. And I have decided to travel light.... no checked bags, just my backpack and my ukulele. I don't have all the details worked out for after I get there but I'm trusting in that greater force and allowing the flow of life to lead me in the right direction after I land in Tropical Paradise. I'm just looking forward to learning more about how to finish and publish my books and I'm excited to meet new people. I've been day-dreaming about drinking straight from the green coconuts and I really hope those little purple passion-fruits are ripe this time of year!
Thank you Sarah Rose for igniting that spark of intention. Woo-hoo, I get to be in Hawaii on the Solstice too!
And Thank you to the mysterious powers that be for guiding me in this crazy lifetime. I have received so many different re-affirming signs about taking this trip that it's hard to believe I ever questioned it.